Mandy Life

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2005-02-10T13:22:00.000+08:00

HaPpIe cHinEsE nEw yEaR eVeRyOnE !! hahax ... me super long time nvr update le .... lolx ... sorry la ... me no time siax ... hahax ... ahhhhh .... why my time - table so tight de ?? got no time to buy valentine present .... haix .... sianx siax ...

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2005-01-30T13:32:00.001+08:00

sianx .... sec 3 le ... so many homework siax ... den every monday and wednesday hav extra lesssons until 3.30pm or 4pm .... sianx siax .... hahax .... me almost everyday not free siax ... still hav SYF tis yr .... need to practise veri hard ... haix ... no time to play ??? hahax .... if i go play ... the next day mus rush all the homework .... hahax .... anyway ... sorry my friends .... me no time to blog la .... busy wid sch stuff ... can go online as often le ... cox guai gurl gurl is here ... she is goin to study !!! hahax ... me so thick skin .... hahax ....

went shOppIng 2daE

2004-12-23T23:29:00.000+08:00

hmmmm .... me today went shopping ... hexhex ... so happie ... my dad last nite giv me $100 le ... but me didnt really buy the things tat i wan ... cox need to buy zhang'e birthday present ... christmas present ... still need to eat ... take neoprints ... den me onli buy one pink shirt and a necklace ... den left onli $32 .. haix ... sad siaz ... lolx .... $100 veri little siaz ... lolx ... me wanna hav more ... lolx ... okok ... cannot be greddy ... lolx ... but at least got buy things for myself ... kind of happie ... hmmmm ... maybe the rest i save den other time buy other things lorx ... lolx .. den after shoppin ... go to valerie hs ... lolx ... go cut hair again .... lolx .. not really cut la .. juz trim trim onli and layer ... cox veri thick siaz .... me now dunno how am i goin to tie my hair to sch siaz ... oh no ! die siaz ... if onli can let down my hair den gd le ... haix .... impossible de la ... if can den gd le .... lolx .... me tink too much le ... me tml maybe goin out maybe not goin out .... lolx ... sad siaz ... no one jio me go out siaz ... sad siaz .... * sob sob * lolx ...

shou sianz ...

2004-12-22T16:51:00.000+08:00

me now at zhang'e hs wOrx ... hexhex ... so sianz marx ... today band half day .... happie siaz ... lolx ... but no combined kinda sianz ... cox hav sectionals ... lolx .. but quite fun la ... cox can slack ... hexhex ... shhhhhh .... cannot tell out .... hmmmmm ... christmas coming le ... lolx ... so happie .... got presents to take ... hexhex .... and can go shopping wOrx ... yes ! so happie ... erm ... me these few days nth special happen to me lehx .... everyday almost the same thing ... go out wid friends ... den go home le ... so fast ... den now go out also everywhere walk until sianz liao .... cox no money to buy .... haix ... sad siaz ... nvm ... me today maybe gettin my reward of $100 !! hexhex ... den can go shopping tml le .... yay !! me goin to buy alot of things lehx .... but $100 is kinda little to me ... cox i tis kinda gurl ... shopping freak ... can stay in one shopping for veri long ... haix ... if onli i hav alot of money ... * tinks tinks * okok ... me stop tinking le ... cox tis kinda things wont happen de .... haix ... me dunno why i feel so empty inside ... my life like veri boring like tat ... dunno wat i am missin in life ... haix .... juz hope tat i am able to find tat smth tat is missing inside me lorx .... juz wanna wish mOi frens merry christmas !! hohoho !!

happie .... new hair cut ??

2004-12-17T16:25:00.000+08:00

hey ... me so happie ... lolx .... recently got myself a new hair cut worx ..... lolx .... all thankx to valerie and cheryl ... they cut my hair for me siaz .... pro ritex ?? next time they can open a hair - dresser shop siaz ..... den me can go there le .... hexhex .... but me also feel abit sad lorx ... cox my long long hair gone le ... haix ... anyway .... me tis few days almost everyday go out siaz ... wid my lesbian memebers worx .... but shuyi cant come ..... sad siaz .... one more thing ... i hav almost forgotten him !! lolx .... jia you mandy ... can do it de ... lolx .... hmmm.... tml got band le ..... need to wake up early again ... my band break so fast over siaz ... lolx .... but i enjoyed myself anyway .... days past super fast ... goin to be christmas le .... yay ... can recieve presents and money also flying away .... cox still owe my sister christmas present ... haix ... lolx ..... me stop here le ... stay cheerful always !

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2004-12-14T01:20:00.000+08:00

me yesterday buy my $30 blouse !! lolx .... so happie .... but we no money le .... haix .... sianz .... sad siaz .... nvm ... slowly save lorx .... so sianz .... now talkin on the phone ... lolx .... wid my funni friends .... so funni de ..... erm .... nth really happen lehx ... so cant really talk alot .... but me today goin to buy food for picnic for tml !! lolx .... yay !! den can take more pic wid my friends .... hexhex .... sorry .... me abit zi lian de ... hope dun mind .... erm ... stop here le ... take care my friends !

went to orchard

2004-12-13T01:09:00.000+08:00

yesterday me and my elder sis went to orchard .... cox my sis wanna send ur expensive bag for washing ... lolx ... cox dirty le ... but while walkin to the mrt station .... she suddenly realise tat the shop doesnt open on sundays ... lolx ... so we go there and walk walk lorx .... see clothes and things lorx ... blahx blahx ... christmas coming le ... orchard there got alot of decorations lehx .... nice to see siaz .... den i saw a blouse .... veri nice de .... even my elder sis also likes .... veri nice siaz ... me plan on buyin it ... cost $30 .... lolx .... expensive ... to me ... cox me tis kinda ppl veri poor de .... lolx ... no choice .... but really veri nice lorx ... liked it alot .... hexhex .... hmmm .... den today maybe hav sectionals lorx .... den later go kai kai ... wid my lesbian group .... hexhex .... consists of cheryl sarah , zhang 'e , valerie and shu yi ... hexhex .... erm ... me sometimes miss him lorx ... but me still trying to 4get him .... nvr stop trying .... lolx ... * winkz *

bleahz

2004-12-11T13:13:00.000+08:00

sorry ppl out there ..... me nvr update my blog for veri long le ..... cox my another com got problem and tis com my sister keep using .... cox cant blog la .... sorry .... erm ... during these last few days or 1 or 2 weeks .... alot of things happen to me lorx .... happiness and sadness .... happiness is veri happie ... sadness is veri sad lorx .... obviously ritex ....

erm .... let's start from my BNSS Viva La Musica Band Concert !! 3 rd of Dec 2004
lolx ... veri nervous at tat time ... during the rehearsals on tat day ... the band members made Mr . Lim [ our conducter ] veri angry .... cox we are not concentrating .... and we always play wrongly ... haix .... den at bout 5 pm we hav our dinner ... at bout 2 and a half hours time ... our concert is goin to start ... everyone was so nervous .... we change into our band uniform [ which it sux , no offence ] and startin tuning to each other .... so during the concert we wont be out of tune ... as time passes by ... we were getting closer to our concert ... i get so nervous tat i start huggin all my friends and suddenly * rrrrriiiinnnngggg * there goes the bell ... we had to walk on stage le ... omg .... tat was so scary .... i was so damn nervous !! my hands startin shaking .... my legs became weak ... my heart starting beating veri fast .... tat i cant even catch my breathe .... my mind also was spinning ... there are so many ppl back there watching us .... though it was not full house .... but i was already veri happie .... cox i had nvr been or perform in any concert b4 ... tis was my first time and my best time of my life ! everything went so smoothly .... and during the last song ... everyone clapped their hands .... at tat veri moment , i felt so .... [ tat feelings i dunno how to describe ... ] when we walk back stage , Mr Lim say well done !! amazing !! i so happie tat i hug my group [ LESBIAN ] and some of my other friends .... oh man ! i juz feel so great at tat time ... i nvr felt so happie b4 in my life .... but i noe there are still alot of challenges out there waiting for me ..... after all those hugging and all those stuff .... me went lookin for my sisters and jek hao kor kor ... but i cant find them ... nvm ... den i saw wei jie [ my ex , u muz be wondering why too ... later u will find out ] , wei xiang , gladys jie , wilson and jasmine jie .... i was veri happie to see them cox i veri long time nvr see them le ... esp wei jie .... cox during my band camp , he went overseas ... den on the day of my concert is the day he came back .... my heart was beating veri fast the moment i saw him .... den i went to hug my jie jies ... den gladys jie jie ask me to hug wei jie .... when she said tat , i was thinkin whether he wanted it anot .... cox if i hug him den he move away ... it is veri pai seh lorx .... i ask him whether i can hug him anot and he gave me a weird look on his face .... den i dunno why i still went to hug him .... but lucky i did ... cox tat was the last hug tat i was goin to hug him .... later the band members were having their photo - taking wid their friends and families .... everyone was so happie .... we went packing our stuff and head back to sch .... cox tonight we are stayin over - night in sch ... and tml morning we are having band exchange wid regent sec and malaysian band too ... but during the night ... everyone was celebrating bout the concert tat they 4got tat tml will be having a band exchange ... erm ... i was also one of them .. but i didnt sleep until veri late ... cox i tis kinda ppl .... veri lazy de ... hexhex ...

4th of Dec 2004
the next day ... everyone woke up ... veri sleepy like tat .... * yawn * ... i myself also veri tired lorx .... all the 3 schools hav to perform for each other .... my sch played the most lousy .... omg ! juz after concert lehx .... hmmmm ... maybe everyone is tired lorx .... me too .... and i myself didnt play as well as last night .... as for the malaysian band .... their playin was super gd siaz ! AMAZING !! u can hear everything veri clearly .... bout in the afternoon .... they leave le .... den my sch band and regent sch band both got a lecture from Mr Lim .... haix .... den we went to do area cleaning while the regent sec went back to their sch ... at bout 4 or 5 pm .... we were den dismissed ... so late ritex ?? oh ya ... and wei jie at tis time was sick ... poor guy .... when he say he is sick .... i veri worried for him .... haix ... 4 or 5 pm is still veri early for me to go home ... hexhex .... i veri naughty de ... like to go home late late de .... so my friends and i decided to go to food court and stay there for a while ... cox ... I NEEDED AIR - CON !!! it was so damn hot !! when we went there ... i start to feel sleepy tat i fell asleep .... actually wei jie wanna send me home de .... but he like sick sick de ... so i say dun need .... haix ... den at bout 6 plus .... me and zhang 'e go home .... draggin our heavy bags home .... phew ... tat was so damn tiring .... i reach home , went to bathe and eat ... den not long after ... i went to zzzzzz .... so sleepy ....

5th of Dec 2004
something bad happen to me .... veri bad and sad .... during the afternoon ... me and wei jie was msg - ing as usual ... den den later in the nite ... near mid - night ... he start askin me weird qns ... and sayin weird things .... erm ... me dun wanna mention here ... sorry ... abit private .... and today was the day , my relationship wid him had ended .... and my dreams was being shattered into bits and pieces by him ... sometimes i wonder why tis kinda thing had to happen to me ?? why ?? haix ... veri sad ... me cried for the whole nite and gladys jie jie went to comfort me .... am i fool to wait for him after the day when he first break up wid me ?? i thought like maybe me and him can start anew lorx .... haix .... but i was juz foolin myself ... tis things wont happen .... i felt so depressed and weak .... maybe i and him wasnt meant to be together .... maybe he doesnt even like me b4 .... maybe ..... haix .... but nvm .... me still moving on in life .... i dun need him i still can move on .... i still can find my own happiness wid my friends .... but right deep deep inside in my heart .... i noe i am still crying ..... but i will not show it out ... to all my friends out there who are feeling sad right now cox of relationships ... blah blahz ... dun be too depressed ... stay happie always kk ?? remember to smile and laugh , like me !! laughter is the best medicine to cure any sadness .... * winkz *

rehearsal at VCH

2004-11-29T21:15:00.000+08:00

today i have my first rehearsal at VCH !! lolx...erm...me nvr go to VCH b4...lolx...so tis is my first time... inside veri nice siaz...lolx... and veri big... Mr Lim run through all the songs tat we are goin to play for concert... omg...it was so damn tiring siaz... really... sit there for bout 2 or 3 h blowing ur heads out , tongue on ur notes and stretching our ears to listen for intonation...we have to do many things at one time.... all the songs are also different...me also muz noe the style of the music..blah blah... erm... den after tis... in the bus back to sch....i dunno why i feel so sianz lehx... like no mood de... usually i like to laugh laugh de...veri cheerful... but today i cannot be happy lehx..lolx... maybe mood swing bahz.... den i suddenly tink of my laogong...miss him so much... tink of him until can cry...lolx... dunno why...me too emotional le....haix...wat to do... oh ya... me today also tell wei jie [ sec 3 ] tat i choose to be both concert mistress and sectional leader.... cannot choose one de...so no choice lorx... and i also dun wanna give up so easily.... lolx..i will try my veri best....lolx... tml me having my band camp so wont be creatin any post until 4 or 5 of dec .... sorry...

so tired ...

2004-11-27T19:55:00.000+08:00

today got band again lorx... haix...so damn freaking tired siaz... everyday got band...from monday to saturday lehx... can die man... lolx... keep playing clarinet...play until mouth pain le la... lolx... anyway...today we have combined almost the whole day...but got bout 1 or 2 h sectionals lorx... wid miss yong... our clarinet teacher... oh ya... today also got my 2 clarinet section shirts..lolx...nice siaz...thankx to cheryl and valerie hard work... lolx...love my clarinet section alot.... u rocks siaz !! nth really happen today...juz tat i am missing him like crazy...haix...waiting for his msg...but he wont msg me de la... overseas msg veri expensive de... so dun tink so he will... anyway today cheryl veri funni... during dismissal time we always laugh like crazy de... lolx...dunno why...like habit siaz...lolx... den combine serious serious... haha...Mr Lim wan us to practise samba de loves you ...if not encore cannot play...haix...i wan to play samba... nice song siaz.... lolx..den after band we go tampines mall...buy another 2 more shirts for sarah and karen...and i also bought a pink shirt....hexhex...running out of clothes siaz.... so pathetic...wanna buy clothes also no money....haix...
Dear , miss u so much....hope u too... hope u are enjoyin urself now... take care ! muackx ! always loving u !!

the day i start missing him.....

2004-11-26T21:18:00.000+08:00

today morning i have band...at 7.30am...sianz.... den we have sectionals all the way until 11.20am... erm...we spent quite long on the arranging of the scores....cox during concert we are not allowed to move our files !! lolx...tat is wat Mr Lim says...so have to listen lorx....no choice....
den we practise playing our clerinet lorx....on the running notes... haix...wei jie [ sec 3 ] dun care section liao....guess he is still angry....haix...sorry lehx... den in the afternoon we have performance for the old folks.... in our sch...i find it veri funni....cox the old folks come to our sch instead we going there....lolx....and they are already old le... den ask them to walk here walk there... quite bad lehx...lolx....first time performance i am not scared lehx... usually i will shake like crazy de....but today i not shaking !! lolx... miracle... after band , i went to my laogong house to give him something... cox he going overseas today.... haix... i now missing him like crazy... haix... cant recieve gd nitex msg from him... :'( ...so sad...haix...nvm...he happy can le...and today sue yee also going hoilday...lolx...go overseas on the same day and come back also on the same day !! lolx... cool ritex ?? haix..me siaoz siaoz le...trying to entertain myself...if not i will go crazy de.... den after giving him...i and zhang'e go sit at the playground and talk talk lorx.... until 6.30pm...den we slowly walk down...zhange'e today really siaoz le... keep talking rubbish siaz.... haiyo....dangerous...later she anyhow anyhow...LOL... jkjk... oh ya... when i was bout to alight from the bus..i tink i saw Mr Lim lehx.... i saw a guy tat really look like him siaz... scary man... i dunno whether it is him lorx....i dare not look at him until so hard lorx...later wrong person den veri pai seh lehx....lolx...

Dear , muz take care of urself... and enjoy urself....dun forget to read ur gd nitex msg in the book i give u.... lolx... may u have a safe journey... take care dear... muackx !! love u...

wat i did today ??

2004-11-25T21:03:00.000+08:00

*yawn* ... need to wake up so early....got band..need to be in sch at 0730... early ritex ?? lolx... den have combined for selected ppl onli...cox our concert some of songs onli allow selected ppl to play....den the rest have sectionals... bout 9am we have combine wid the whole band... hmmm.. Mr Lim like wasnt veri happy on our performance....cox he sound like he wanted to explode in anger...veri scary.... haix....den my running notes sux man !! need to practise like hell... stupid.... erm...tml i have performance for the old folks.... lolx... kind of nervous.... after band... i went out wid cheryl , valerie , zhang'e , shuyi and kelvin....we went to tampines mall to buy white shirts for everyone as section t - shirt....cox every section have their own shirt marx... lolx.... cool ritex ??? den valerie and cheryl will decorate the plain white shirt....though it is cheap and it cost onli $8...lolx... not like the another shirt...cost me $20 !! expensive siaz... anyway... after buying... we went shopping... u noe i didnt noe tat tampines have long john silver at the top floor....lolx...long time nvr go there le...so dunno anything...our band camp coming le...so we were like buying stuff for the camp...cheryl , zhang'e and me bought a small bag to put our stuff....den valerie , cheryl and zhang'e bought the same file..lolx..hmmmm...goin out wid them really fun..glad to have them as my mei meis... hexhex...
on the other hand...i also feel like sad... cox tml my laogong goin overseas le.... haix... sure miss him like crazy de... i cant bear to see him leave.... haix...i really cant bear... i now tryin veri hard to hold back my tears... without him by my side , i feel veri empty... like there is something missing... haix.... go to band sure sianz sianz de... mei meis ... muz make me happy... tell me jokes.... make me laugh.... i scared i will cry....haix.... = (

Dear....i love u so much....hope i can see u tml... i really wanna see u.... muackx.. take care of urself worx... miss u lots !!

haix....

2004-11-24T22:25:00.000+08:00

today i have band practice as usual...but hav another conducter from another school come and see us play.... and on the way giv us advise on how to improve our way of playing our instrument and the kind of music tat we play.... erm...i dunno how to spell his name la...sorry...lolx... but i noe tat he teaches music veri gd..really... and i find it veri interesting to listen... hexhex... but after tis...we have sectionals until 12pm which is lunch time... haix.... sectionals ahx... haix... manting was conducting at first... and she give up and den she ask weijie [ sec 3 ] to conduct but he refuses...so she ask victor instead.... not long after manting ask me to conduct... haix.... i tis kinda of person... dunno how to conduct... expect me to conduct... juz becox i am the future clarinet section leader.... haix... den i everytime conduct wrong... den i myself feel veri disappointed lorx.. [ .i always tink to myself why i dunno how to conduct ??? why ??? i feel like a failure....dunno anything... and everything i do is always wrong...tat is nth i did is correct....haix.... ] haix....den i get stressed up and angry wid myself tat i scream on top of my voice den i walk out of the room... sorry clerinet section...i am not a gd section leader... i am nvr a gd player nor leader... i have no confidence in myself...i cant do it... manting...sometimes i wonder are u rreally sure to choose me as a section leader... cox if u wanna change i dun mind de... really...i totally cool wid it... weijie [ sec 3 ] i nvr blame u tat u keep correcting me about the conducting thingy... is i really veri mad at myself... i dunno wat to do... i am the kind of gurl tat have no confidence in myself... until when i see the results of the things i do , i will den hav confidence... but later tis confidence will soon be gone... i really hate myself.... i feel tat i am a useless person.... can nvr make things right....

after sectionals...i have no mood to laugh and talk like i used to....haix.... den during combined in the afternoon... Mr Lim nvr went through any scores wid us but instead he went through scales.... which is a boring thing to do.... but it helps in the sound... so it is still useful... den we also get to hear the songs tat are being recoreded yesterday... oh man.... the sound was so funni...some of the running notes are not clear... haix... need to work on so many things and onli left bout a week to concert ??

for all those ppl who comfort me juz now...thankx so much.... and special thankx to my laogong... muackx !! always loving u...

Wat a SCARY movie !!!

2004-11-23T20:57:00.000+08:00

today i went to watch the movie ' shutter ' .... Omg... tat was a damn fraking scary movie ok !! me scared i cant slp tonight lehx... lolx... better hope me can slp peacefully siaz... *pray pray*
lucky got my laogong pei me watch...hexhex... whenever i am scared i can hug him anytime... lolx... erm... i tink i hug him almost during the whole movie ??? lolx... got my laogong wid me... i wont feel so scared...hexhex... laogong... love u so much... muackx ! hmmm...not forgetting zhang'e and sue yee watching the movie wid me....lolx... sue yee tat another joker siaz... lolx... same as cheryl siaz... exactly the same....go out wid them can laugh until stomach pain siaz.... scary... their jokes veri effective de... effective towards me la....dunno whether effective wid other ppl anot lehx....100 % can make u laugh like crazy siaz... all stupid and lame jokes... lolx... they make my life so happy.... plus moi laogong [ of course ] ... lolx...

erm.... zhang'e....dun angry le...relax gurl....chill out dude !! dun make urself angry over tis kinda guy....not worth it de...u can use tis kinda time to laugh and play...like me !! lolx... but me laogong goin overseas in 3 days le.... sure gonna miss him like crazy...like cheryl... she now missing him like crazy.... haix...muz need some jokes to make me happy...if not i really go crazy de... lolx... living in a world without him... Omg....cant imagine.... = ( ... zhang'e...u still hav me , cheryl they all...to accompany u... u dun need tat bastard... he everytime make u angry....no point gurl...

as for cheryl... u also muz relax... i noe now u are missing him like crazy....cox u today nvr laugh so much as u used to be....lolx.... we 2 always making stupid jokes to laugh... inventing new games... lolx... veri soon i will be like u... veri serious like tat...lolx... dun sad already kk ???

Dear Dear.... i love u so much.... today i watch the movie...i was so scared u went to comfort me... muackx !! thankx... ai shi ni le... mandy ( ' v ' ) wei jie ---> 1314 , 3344

band practice today

2004-11-22T21:07:00.000+08:00

hmmmmm...today have band practice for the whole afternoon... Mr Lim recorded the songs we are going to play during the concert so tat we can hear how we sound like... haix...left 11 more days to concert le...so scared... 11 days pass veri fast de...so scared...i play so lousy esp wid the running notes.... sad siaz...nvm...i will keep practising until i can get all the running notes correct b4 concert... den the band will sound nicer rather than bluffing through.... erm....
Mr Lim also let us see one opera show acted by one famous women.... the show was veri touching and nice... i enjoy it alot...although it was an opera show...LOL...but overall it was nice...it really helps me to express my feelings while i am playing my clarinet lorx.... veri helpful indeed... thankx Mr Lim... next time should show more of this kind of thingy... LOL...
my laogong today dye his hair... lolx... brown color.... dunno whether nice anot lehx... tml i meet him den can see.... hexhex.... wonder how he looks like.... he gd la... finish his 'o' levels le... can dye any color he wants.... not fair....i muz wait for another 2 more years....den can do tat....but actually time doesnt makes any difference to me...cox i now also goin to dye my hair... dun care teacher la.... teacher blind blind de... eyes got problem.... LOL... hmmmm....me sharing hair dye wid valerie...we are goin to dye our hair during our band break...after our concert... lolx... and cheryl dun sad kk ?? although u now cant msg him... i noe it is veri sad...cox in a few days i will be experiencing it too... lolx...and i will be more crazy than u.... lolx... dun sad le... smile gurl.... =D

Feeling so happy !!

2004-11-21T21:44:00.000+08:00

today , actually is a boring day.... cox got nth to do at home de.... i play the com as i was veri bored... den my laogong out of sudden call me.... i was already veri happy by tat time cox i can talk to him.... lolx... i asked him where is he.... den he say he is at his house de coffee shop...den he out of sudden sat he wan to come my house...but i dun wan... cox i dun like ppl come my house de.... den he say he is outside my house...i dun believe at first until he knocked at my door !!! * OMG * i was so damn shocked !! i didnt expect him to come to my house.... i wasnt prepared siaz...lolx... den i quickly change my clothes den go meet him...the moment i see his face , my heart galloped... i always feel veri happy at the sight of him... lolx.... cox maybe i miss him too much le... and i wan to see him...i one week nvr see him le... miss him like crazy...lolx... u might tink it is onli one week...but to me it is veri long...den we went to the top floor of my block... the view was so damn nice...can see everything... too bad it is not evening time...if not can see sunset wid him... lolx....nvm...i see him i happy le...den we talk talk... lolx... den not long i go home le...cox he still need to go to his relative house...so cannot be late... although i onli see him for a while , i feel veri happy le... cox at least can see his face...
Dear , i love u so much... thankx for ur surprise visit... lolx.. muackx ! take care .

Today Laugh Until SOO Damn Loud !!

2004-11-20T21:13:00.000+08:00

today...i hav band practice the whole day...we hav combined first den sectionals.... hmmmm.... dunno why during combined i veri hard to play my clarinet lehx....maybe cox of my reed... lolx... break until veri lan lan like tat...lolx.. lucky i get anew one...hexhex... Mr. Lim say clarinet attendence veri gd these few weeks...hexhex...so happy... first time praise us clarinets players...lolx.... izit first time ?? not sure...cant remember le...lolx... short - term memory loss...
lolx... after combined...we hav 1h of sectionals.... den tis...we went for lunch wid my mei meis...except for Cassandra...
Cassandra rockx siaz...she treat me eat lunch !! lolx....me poor marx..wat to do ?? no money le...haix.. after lunch we went back to hav combined again...so boring ritex ?? but muz tahan...cox got concert coming le... muz practise veri hard worx... jia you clarinet players.... muz practise hard...
so suay siaz me.... me , zhang'e , cheryl and valerie are late for combined by 10 minutes...cox we are laughin out loudly all the way...dunno why...cant remember wat we are laughin at anyway... cox we hav to do 10 push - ups !! haix... after combined...we again have sectionals.... lolx..by den we all veri sianz le... cox keep having sectionals..so sianz... den me and cheryl tink of one stupid game....called ---> chicken fish prawn <--- Lolx.. it is a veri stupid game la.. lolx... den we also try to speak slang... den we laugh laugh laugh... LoLx... den i cannot tahan i juz burst out laugh until so damn loud.. until manting and shuyi says tat they can hear me at the ava room...and the ava room is quite far... ** Oh My God ** ... i didnt noe i can laugh until so damn freaking loud...so pai seh..lolx... anyway....i cant help it... tat cheryl la....make some stupid jokes...and ask me to repeat the words all over again... lame lehx she.... so funni man... laugh until stomache... erm...zhang'e... did me and cheryl make u laugh until veri happy juz now ?? haix... my tis mei mei zhang'e ahx.. haix...she is feeling sad lately...cox of **** problems... dun tink too much le kk ?? not gd for health... lolx...lame la me....i siaoz siaoz le...all thankx to cheryl...lolx...jkjk...
after band...me and zhang'e walk down... den my laogong ask me whether wanna meet him anot wid his friends.... den i say i now accompanying zhang'e...den he say nvm...dear...me actually wanna meet u de after i pei zhang'e.... sorry lehx... not tat i care for my friends more than u kk ?? i care for u and my friends the same... both means alot to me... kk ?? juz now when u say i dun need to call u le cox u are goin to slp....i feel veri sad...cox i cant talk to u le... haix... but after i reply u.. u call me...my heart was flying at tat moment....cox i didnt expect u to call me !! lolx.. so happy... love u so much ! muackx ! everytime i hear ur voice , i will feel veri happy de... lolx... dear...my love for u will nvr change... dun worry... hope urs too...

so damn tired sia...

2004-11-19T17:31:00.000+08:00

today...i went out wid valerie , cheryl and zhang'e ... we went to bugis den to orchard... we are supposed to go there and shop....but in the end we were looking for jobs... cox we needed money badly !!! lolx.... so we took turns to ask the shopkeepers whether they wanna hire us... the order was cheryl , me , zhang'e den valerie... it was veri scary to ask them...and it is also veri PAI SEH !!! lolx... onli cheryl dare to ask.... [ way to go cheryl !! brave gal !! ] we managed to find 2 jobs tat wan to accept us... but we still need to wait cox it is onli selected ppl onli !! wat the hell !! lolx... nvm.... beta than nth ritex ?? we were afraid tat our chances of getting the job is veri low...cox we are onli 14 years old and valerie is onli 13... veri hard to find a job....haix.... what is the problem of 13 or 14 years old ??!!! we are still ppl.... lolx... den we went to Long John Silver to eat our lunch... u noe the Combo 1 they are selling ?? valerie thought she was eating fish !!! LOL !! tat was so damn freaking funni.... she has been eating for so long le and she thought it was fish... lolx...den cheryl say next time chicken become fish while fish become chicken !!! lolx.... den she even make a poem out of tis thingy... lolx...joker man she.... hmmmm.... cheryl...we today didnt really make any jokes...lolx... except valerie.... lolx... the fish and chicken thingy... lolx... den we walk all the way back to cineleisure... and we are not walking slowly lehx...we are walking damn fast ok ??!! cox valerie need to go home early...so we faster walk... cox of cheryl la... she so gan chiong... lolx...dunno why...should be valerie...but instead it was her... lame lehx she...lolx...
den our feet are so pain...lolx..walk too fast le...can exercise den lose weight siaz...lolx...
hmmm...congrats to cheryl , valerie and zhang'e for finding a job....lolx... hope tat u all are able to get the job !! lolx...

sad sad.... so sad...

2004-11-18T20:16:00.000+08:00

haix... i now feeling so sad.... wanna cry.... haix... dear.... why everytime u go online and we havent chat for veri long u dun wan to chat wid me le ?? and u say u dun wan to disturb me ??? i am not busy at all lorx... no matter wat i am doing...i will always be free for u de.... why cant u see ??? do u noe it hurts me when u say u dun wan to disturb me ??
haix...i am trying to understand in ur position tat u really dun wanna disturb me... but i really wan to talk to u.... cox now my sms alr explode le...i cant msg u as much as last time le.... i everyday miss u so badly... den when u say u hav no confidence tat u can pass ur 'o' levels...i am veri worried for u...do u noe tat ??? how i wish i everyday can see u... but there is one thing i will fear...i scared ur feelings for me will fade...cox u say b4 tat see each other too often u will feel sianz sianz de.... and i dun wan it to happen.... so i try to hang out wid my friends more often to pass my time away... haix.... i am feeling so lost... i dunno wat to do.... me dare not tell u my true feelings cox i dun wan u to worry for me.... no matter wat i am feeling right now..i always put a happy smile for u to see.... dear... dun always tink of negative thoughts kk ??? u can pass ur 'o' levels de... muz believe in urself...and i will always be behind u supporting u de... dun giv up hope yet cox i hav not given up hope on u.... jia you worx....

so sianz

2004-11-18T17:32:00.000+08:00

haix...today so sianz... nth to do... except for practising my clarinet for the upcoming concert on 3rd of dec... lolx... me practising veri hard for it worx... haix... sorry...nth really happen today lorx... lolx... so nth to write.... hmmm... tml i am goin out wid my mei meis again...so sure got something to write de...lolx... dun worry... =D

haha !! so funni !! laugh till my head drop off !!

2004-11-17T21:22:00.000+08:00

today during band practise...my stupid mei mei cheryl make me laugh again...lolx...like i said....she is really a joker... esp to me !! can make me laugh everyday... make my life so happie when she is around wid me.... lolx.... hmmmm... wat jokes did we talk bout today ??? the word pulse ??? or POWS [ prisoner - of - war ] ??? lolx... i down here writing all these stuff also can laugh until stomache pain siaz.... oh ya... still got one more... the word dong dong xi... muz be in a higher pitch and not a lower pitch...lolx... so funni.... me and cheryl really can make so many stupid and lame jokes siaz... some more onli both of us are laughin until our heads almost drop off siaz.... it was so damn freaking funni...lolx... sorry ppl out there who dunno wat i am talkin bout.... cox it is some kind like a joke tat me and cheryl made today....and u guys are not there to hear bout it...lolx....sorry.... =D

dun wanna go to the bbq

2004-11-17T20:45:00.000+08:00

After zhang'e told me tat someone is not really veri happy tat i can go to 3E while she cant... and her results are almost the same as mine... juz by the difference of 2 marks... she wanted to appeal to the same class as her best friends... but it failed... cox in her current class she is going...she has no close friends around... i tink now she is still angry wid me.... lolx... dunno dun care... it is not my fault lorx... it is my duty wat.... why cant she tink??? did she stand in my position and tink ??? NO !!! she juz throw off her freaking temper and keep sayin and saying... she tinks she is wat??? queen ahx??? everybody needs to listen to her mehx??? i give up liao....so i dun wan to patch up wid her as a friend... sometimes i feel she is being veri unreasonable lorx.... now she is organising a class bbq... and i dun feel like going... why muz i go ??? i thought by now she should hav cool down and let the matter rest.... but now ??? haiyo... really dunno la... lolx... i no matter wat wont beg her to be my friend anymore siaz... so damn angry siaz when mention bout her....

Going Out

2004-11-17T09:28:00.000+08:00

hmmmm...yesterday i went out wid my god-mei meis...Valerie , Cheryl Sarah and Shu Yi... they all ahx...veri funni de...esp Cheryl siaz...she is a joker man... everytime make me laugh de...laugh until stomache pain and den having a hard time to walk properly... we went suntec city link mall walk walk...cox i am looking for a notebook to buy for my laogong marx...lolx... me and cheryl are tryin to make shuyi laugh cox she is feeling down these few days... we tried sayin stupid kinda things...like the word smooTH... to make shuyi laugh...in the end...me and cheryl start laughin between ourselves...lolx... later on shuyi laugh at our silly jokes... [ finally she laughs... dun wanna see her so sad sad de... ] as for valerie... she ahx...so hard to make her laugh de.... she onli laugh for abit den nvr laugh le...lolx... nvm....i will try to make u laugh one day...lolx...

After tat...we went to Tampines Mall...cox valerie wanna buy contacts lens and she wan to check out all the prices.... while we were walking around the shops...we saw Maia... lolx... at first i didnt noe tat it was her...until cheryl and shuyi tell me... *Omg* ...i was so excited...cox i wan to get her autograph... so i ask cheryl and shuyi to help me out...but they themselves are also scared to ask..so i give up and i ask myself.... tat feeling was so scary...lolx... after getting her autograph...
i was so happie...lolx... Maia is so pretty... lolx... by tat time...it was alr 5 something le...and valerie had to go home le...she leave first and left wid the 3 of us.... we walk round round the shops... to pass the time away...and not long after... shuyi also had to go home le.... and left wid me and cheryl...

U noe where we went??? we go to TOYS 'R' US ...lolx... cox we had nth to do...so we went in to see see lorx...lolx.... cheryl says tat nowadays the children are veri lucky...cox they hav so many toys to play wid.... lolx....we stay in there quite along time...cox we are playin the toys !!! lolx... we havent grow up yet...lolx.. still so young...hexhex.... it was alr goin to be 6pm....we went home... phew....wat a long day...feeling so tired.... *yawn*